Happy news

Today’s entry is probably one of the most specials… My best friends, my soul mate, my sister and one of the loves of my life is in labor. I’ll kill to be by her side right now, sharing this moment. I have told you about her multiple times… She got married 5 years ago and since then she’s been going thru so much… She has been suffering anxiety attacks and depression. I’m honored to say we fought that together. 

I remember when I first realized I needed professional help but was so scare to go to a consultation… I told her and I didn’t even asked her, she said she’ll pick me up from work. And so she did. We walked together to the doctors, we waited patiently, she held my hand and waited for me outside. She’s been every step of my recovery process.

One of her sources of pain and anxiety was having a baby. Today she is having a baby. All of her fears are gone; she is exited and can’t wait to see his little face. Neither can I. So far she is only 6 cms, epidural on and trying to get some rest. I didn’t call and I’m trying not to disturb every 5 minutes but it’s really hard. 

I pray for her and her baby to be Ok. I know they will be but just in case I made sure she understood I was by her side and that I loved her. It made us cry, but those are happy tears, well deserved ones if you ask me. These tears are a gift, they prove you can make it through anything. You can kick depression and anxiety if you keep fighting. As it turns out they’re weaker than what you thought.

Big smiles

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I'm really happy to announce I'll be joining the firm next week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

It's been a crazy, confusing, annoying, complicated, rough road but it's finally here. My effort and the tears are worth it. This is just another step. I know the job will be very very intense but I'm ready. 

Thanks for all your support and love along the way. This is just the beginnig so I'm hoping you will keep me company in the following months. 

Good news!

I'm happy to share with you guys that I'll be driving in a few days!!! YEAHHH I passed!!! What's also very exciting is that the law firm called on my way back from the test. They set up a meeting when I expect to talk about money with them and conditions for hiring me. So after hearing this many great news you can imagine how I'm feeling... I'm so happy I could cry. But I won't no no no this time just I'll just smile, embrace the moment and enjoy this beautiful day. 

And tonight, I'll celebrate with my husband. Yeap, that's right, he's taking me on a date. The best possible date includes fries and burgers and that's what I'll get. Remember guys, to celebrate everything worth celebrating. We will bump into some pretty bad things in our life so it's good to load up some positive energy and let the happiness rule our day! Celebrate good moments means to stop for a few hours and think about it. 

But it will be after my much needed SIESTA.

Long talks

At pretty much the same time I was pressing "publish" for the last post I realized I needed a looooong conversation with my husband. Where's the point of writing this down and live it to no use? So that's how we spend our evening. It wasn't the most pleasant time, but it felt so great to lift that pain off my shoulders. We shared things that were making our marriage suck and made the commitment of working on the things that are annoying about us. What we said to each other, might be hurtful but we were careful to use a regular tone (no screaming allowed) bad words were left aside and everything we said was because it had to be said. 

We started by exposing what things were bothering us. Then the other had a moment to answer to those "accusations" and finally we moved on to possible solutions. They were tears, I cry all the time, sometimes for no reason. But it had to be said, we needed to say those things, it was a burden slowing us up. 

It is my believe that getting married is a forever commitment so every problem, every fight is something we are forced to overcome. We know none of us thinks about jumping the boat under any circumstance so there is a double consequence: the sense of security and a huge responsibility. Sense of security because you know you can screw it up because he has my back. This only works if it's equal for both parties. And the huge responsibility of being the best version of yourself in order to avoid making each others life hell. 

Today he cooked for me, I cooked for him. We laughed and kissed. 

Grandparents

Sorry for missing a few days.. It was my husband's b-day and I wanted to make something special. He is not used to celebrate things but since I had my breakdown I decided to celebrate every little thing worth celebrating... And 35 years are definitively worth celebrating!!

The best part was baking my grandmothers lemon cake... It actually brought back a lot of memories and made me wish I had known my grandparents better. I find grandparents have such a strong responsibility on keeping the family together. They always manage to make the brothers and sisters come together. Unfortunately since my grandparents passed away when I was a kid and I've seen the difference between how Christmas or any other important holidays were celebrated... 

Do you have a good relationship with your grandparents? My advice? Get to spend as much time as you can with them...