Job interviews

I didn't get much sleep last night. I kept waking up every 20-30 minutes thinking I was going to be late for a job interview, 2º in two months. The interview will take place in a city 30 minutes away from where I'm living and after carefull considerations I decided to take the bus because I noticed last time the train got there late and I didn't wanted to take any chances. 

The bus left on time, I was feeling great. Pretty calmed after repeating to me for hours it wasn't a big deal. All my Zen went out the window when I saw the bus station sooooo far away from down town and I only had 30 minutes to get there...on hills...I panicked and jumped into a cab (shit people! I'm on a budget here!). 

I got there on time, happy and excited. The building was amazing, beautifully renovated keeping the right parts of the old construction. The Office seemed great, clean, elegant... The interview will take place by webcam, I sat down, took my papers out, got mentally prepared and suddenly...noises everywhere, they were protesting in front of a bank. It was very annoying and hard to understand what they were saying but I managed just fine. At the end of the interview she wanted to check on my English skills (English is not my maternal language which I'm sure it's something you had already picked up on). Oh my! For some reason whenever I switch to English I need to turn the volume up... I couldn't hear a thing!! Luckily she didn't take it as some random excuse to avoid speaking in English and she decided to call the office and continue by phone. 

Long story short... I left there happy and relaxed. She said she will give her feed back to the office manager and let me know if they were interested on having a second interview. She call me just a few hours later, I'm having that meeting on Wednesday. If they like me...no no no no no... No ifs... I'm going to work hard on the interview and be myself. I hope I can find a place to learn and grow. 

The Roses and the Sun

Good morning guys!! Today is a beautiful day, I say it with a big smile. You may wonder why... Because the sun is shining!! Sunny days make me soooo happy. The light that colors the streets and chasing the sunny spots make my day.

So today I'm reaching high level of being positive! I have so many reasons to be thankful for... Nothing is perfect and I'm comforted by that. None of us are protected from deception, pain, suffering (yeah girl, way to be positive) but the fact that we are here, that you are reading this means we are also strong and powerful. You might not see it; I didn't when I was in a dark place.

I remember when I finally realized I wanted to have a better life. I didn't want a life directed by depression but of course it's easier said than done. Not only from the psychological side of it but because my health insurance was taking too long to answer my request to assume the medical expenses of the treatment. I couldn't wait, so I decide to try doing a simple exercise, write down a positive thing about the day I had. 

It helped me get things into perspective and allowed me to recreate that good thing that had happen to me. Some days it was hard to find something to write down. I had to make an effort to block my bad feelings and dark thoughts and ask my mind to find something beautiful and describe it. That time I spent thinking about that great thing brought me so much peace.

I woke up today and saw a picture of a gorgeous woman smelling a rose and it made me think that I have been absorbed by the terrifying daily routine and forgot to stop and smell the roses. I have to get back on track. Of course roses are only an allegory; it's really about enjoying the good we have around. None of us is save from pain or suffering, in fact I can guarantee you will have to go thru those, and that's why we need to make an effort and emphasize on the good stuff. 

Miranda Kerr, smelling the roses