Mind over body

I'm here! I'm here! Sorry! I've been busy with a new client and trying to stay calmed after getting a phone call from an interesting law firm asking if I was interested on working with them... I couldn't tell her I'm interested on working period. I'm not picky anymore! She said they still had a couple of candidates and they will let me know in the following days... Basically the call meant nothing; they are just considering hiring me, which I honestly knew before they called. So here I am, no news but hell-a-nervous.

So what I'm doing is basically trying to do is stay busy. Driving, organizing the house, exercising... And I guess it explains why I am soooooo tired. Because I am exhausted! And this weekend I won't be at home resting, we are visiting my in-laws. I wish we could postpone it but my father in law was given bad news regarding his health and I think being with him will comfort him. 

As a result of everything my neck is out, I can't really move it to the left. And my leg hurts, but it won't stop me from doing what I do. The neck situation is my body telling me my stress is unhealthy and the only way I know to control it is thru sports. And because of that my leg is out. My plan is to ignore everything and just keep going. I know they say you should listen to your body but in this case my soul needs something else, and I rather please my mind than my body. Your body can not get used to receive all he asks for... It's true for sugar cravings, hunger, and physical need of buying new shoes... But you can't give in to those! My mantra is *Mind over body* I learned it in my hot yoga class and I'm sticking to it!

Anxiety avoidance tip

Sometimes life isn't fair. But today I'm not gonna think about it, I'm going to focus on going back home for the weekend. I can't wait to have that warm feeling when entering the house where I grew up in. All the memories that sets on every room.I might let myself be nostalgic, just for the weekend. I'll take the train, enjoy the yummy sandwiches, read my book, annoy my husband while he sleeps... And hug my mother very closely. 

Anxiety can come from different situations, a job interview, an exam, a social situation, having to leave again at the end of the weekend the house you grew up in and where everything is beautiful and organized and where you don't need to explain every penny you spend... I find it usefull in this cases to do the mental exercise I just did, imaging you are in fact in that moment. How you will arrive to the place, what kind of questions they can ask you, the type of situation you might get yourself into... even the face of the persons, what you will be wearing... Recreate the details of the event that creates the anxious feeling.

It's possible that only by thinking about it it will make you nervious, well good. That way you will avoid that feeling when the event takes place because in your head you will have lived that situation before. It will make it easier and less scary. It only takes a few minutes, concentrate, recreate the situation in an enviroment that makes you feel safe. I assure you when the event comes it will less awkward, scary and unexpected.

Vitamin C and other problems

I think I'm sick again... This is very annoying because I should be in perfect conditions for my test on monday but no... So I decided to increase my vitamin C diet by drinking hot water with lemon and I bought extra strong meds. 

I went to the pharmacy and ask for a specific type which has caffeine because those meds make my sleepy. I grabbed one brand knowing it had caffeine but I asked anyway in order to be sure. The lady answered it didn't have caffeine when I was reading in the components it did have... So she got upset and started making comments, I guess in order to make me feel bad for checking her answer.

I wasn't trying to make her feel bad, I wanted to make sure the pills wouldn't make me fall sleep during the day. It wasn't personal; I was not questioning how professional she is... I honestly don't really care; all I want is this cold out of my body. I only felt bad for a couple of minutes. If she decides to get upset it's her problem, not mine. 

Sometimes people have the power of making us feel guilty, or bad, and even make us responsible for their problems or mistakes just because we were around. Avoid taking in that feeling, it's not your problem to deal with. I'm sure you have plenty of stuff to worry and deal with. Focus on your own problems first, deal and solve those. It is a type of "selfishness", but the good kind.